***
MacLeod walked into Joe's office at the bar on Saturday morning. The man
looked up from a stack of papers on his desk. "My God, Mac. When's the last time you slept?"
"Probably about the same time you did. I can't look any worse than you do.
Now, what do you have that you didn't want Tessa to hear? She's not too happy about being left at home."
"I didn't have the guts to tell her."
"Tell her what, Joe? Don't tell me Richie's-"
"No. At least we don't think so. But, you remember the Hunters?"
"Yes. I thought we got rid of them."
"We did, but apparently there's some SOB who seems to have managed to maintain
his Watcher connections to dig out Immortals. He uses this redhead to bring them to him. We're working on-Mac, are you all
right? Sit down."
Duncan heard Joe's last words through a loud drumming in his ears. He realized
he was supporting himself on Joe's desk. He sat, then shook his head to clear it. "Sorry. Go on."
"It's not that much, but we have a face." Joe handed Duncan a snapshot. "This
was taken in Texas about two months ago. It was just pure luck; a Watcher on her first assignment was being overly conscientious.
Do you recognize her?"
Duncan stared at the picture. The Watcher had snapped it just as the redhead
was turning away from the Immortal so she was practically staring into the camera lens. "No, I've never seen her before. I
think I'd remember her." He set the picture back on Joe's desk.
"Any man would. She's a looker." Joe picked up the picture and put it with
a stack of papers on the side of his desk.
"I've got Adam Pierson on it," Joe continued. "One of our best at digging
out just about anything. The kind of perpetual grad student who lives in the library. He's also a genius with just about any
database on the planet. He's going through public and not so public records-you're not hearing this, you know-and we should
be able to have a name for her any time. I just thought you'd want to know what she looks like. For all we know, she could
be looking for you, too."
"Thanks, Joe." For the first time since he and Tessa had returned home, Duncan
felt there was a chance that he might see Richie again. "You'll let me know when you get a name?"
***
"So, who is this Adam Pierson?" asked Tessa over dinner that night.
"Apparently some hot shot Watcher researcher. Joe seems to think that if
anyone can find Richie, he can."
"I hope so." Tessa picked at her food and pushed her plate away.
"Me, too." Duncan cleared the table, scraping the uneaten food into the disposal.
The two of them stood in strained silence for a moment.
Tessa broke the stillness. "Duncan, it's not your fault. From what we've
heard, this woman is pretty good at luring young men away. Even if you'd been here, he could still be gone."
"But I'd have found him by now."
"How can you be so sure? He just doesn't come home one morning - why would
he be easier to find? It's obvious he's well hidden."
"But -"
Tessa put her hands to his face and stroked his jaw. "But you can't stand
being helpless, so you're blaming yourself. We have to let the people who know where and how to search do the looking for
us right now."
Duncan gathered her in his arms. "I love you, you know."
"I know. You're going out again tonight, though, aren't you?"
"Tess, I have to. I can't sit here."
"I know. Be safe."
The next morning, Tessa insisted that Duncan accompany her to church. "It
just feels like I'm doing something," she explained. Duncan sat through the service, but the usual calm he felt on holy ground
eluded him. He dropped Tessa off at the apartment afterwards, then headed to Joe's. At least there he had the feeling something
was being done.
He parked in the alley. The light was on in Joe's office. Duncan knocked
on the back door. He waved through the glass pane in the door, and watched as Joe manipulated himself out of his chair to
let him in.
"Nothing yet, Mac. I said I'd call you."
"I know. I just can't stand the waiting."
"It's that helplessness thing again. It wasn't your fault, Mac."
"That's what Tessa says, but I just can't help feeling like I should be doing
something more."
"You could go out front and clean."
Duncan raised his eyebrow.
"Okay, so go pour us both a beer."
Duncan had just walked back into Joe's office, beers in hand, when the phone
rang. Joe motioned for Duncan to wait. "Got it. Thanks, Adam. Buy yourself a case of beer and send the bill to me." Joe looked
up at Duncan. "That was Pierson. The redhead's Kathleen O'Malley. Has an apartment in Seacouver on Broad Street. Sixteen fifty,
apartment 256."
Duncan set the beers down on Joe's desk. "Make that two cases of beer, and
put them on my tab," said Duncan.
"Oh, no doubt about it."
"I'll let you know what I find out at her apartment." Duncan left and drove
directly to Broad Street.
No one answered the knock on the apartment door. Duncan pulled out his set
of lock picks, said a quiet thank you to Amanda for her breaking and entering tutelage, and let himself in. The apartment
looked neat and tidy and recently occupied. He found food in the refrigerator, and plants thriving on the windowsill above
the kitchen sink. He moved to a small desk and rummaged through the papers stacked on top. In a folder of bills to be paid,
he found one for the rental of a house somewhere out in the country. That seemed to be the only lead. He noted the address,
put everything back the way he found it and hurried down to his car. He pinpointed the address on the map from the glove compartment,
made quick calls to Tessa and Joe and started off, determined to remain calm.
The drive to the country seemed interminable. Time and again he pushed away
the idea that he might already be too late. Thirty minutes into the drive, one of Seacouver's inevitable rainstorms began.
He turned on the windshield wipers, their rhythmic thumping echoing his pleas. Hang on. Hang on. Hang on.
By the time he wound his way down a narrow dirt road, the skies had blackened,
illuminated only by the occasional flare of lighting. He saw three cars parked in a copse of maple trees, and an old house
with a wide front porch just beyond them. He turned his car around and left it under the trees and out of sight of the house.
He glanced into the back seat of a green Chevy and saw Richie's jacket. The car door was unlocked; he opened it, removed the
jacket and tossed it into the trunk of his T-bird. He made a mental note of the license plates to pass on to Joe later.
He strained his senses, but picked up no signs of immortality. Please, Richie.
It's almost over. Not until he crept up the front porch did he feel the faint resonance of an Immortal. Relief washed over
him. Dark curtains obscured his view into the front of the house. Following the porch, he crouched beneath the lighted kitchen
window, then raised himself just enough to peer inside. He recognized Kathleen O'Malley distributing plates heaped with roast
chicken, mashed potatoes and something green. Two men--one large and beefy, the other slight, both definitely mortal, sat
at the table. Duncan drew back and waited impatiently until the threesome began eating. Duncan watched as they became engrossed
in animated conversation, their voices muted by the wind and rain, before returning to the front door, his pocket toolkit
in hand.
Counting on the howling of the rainstorm to muffle any sounds of his entering
the house, he tried the front door. The old lock gave him little trouble. Still squatting, he felt the door being pulled open.
"Looking for something?" asked a tall man in jeans and boots. He held a gun
pointed at Duncan's head.
Duncan gave the man a broad smile. "Actually, yes, I am," he said. Duncan's
hand shot forward, snagged the man's ankle and yanked it hard. The gunman fell to the floor, momentarily stunned. Duncan had
no trouble pinning his hand to the floor and wrestling the gun from him. One blow with the butt of the Colt sent the man into
oblivion.
"Where's Tex with the beer?" he heard someone call from the kitchen. Duncan
moved toward the sounds.
"Sorry, but Tex is indisposed." Duncan entered the kitchen with the gun pointed
at the threesome. "No, I don't think you want to move. Shall we move to the living room? Hands on your heads, please."
Kathleen and the smaller man moved past him complacently. The large one charged
at Duncan with a roar, sending the gun flying from his hand. Duncan spun around and met his assailant with a knee to the groin.
The man doubled over; Duncan grabbed him by the shoulders and threw him against the door jamb, rendering him unconscious.
The smaller man tried to get past him and out the door. Duncan grabbed him by the belt, turned him around and slammed his
fist into the man's jaw, sending him slumping to the floor. Whatever these men were, they weren't fighters.
The front door was open; Kathleen was nowhere to be seen. Shaking his hand
against the pain of bruised knuckles, Duncan studied the room. A roll of duct tape on the floor beside a ladder-back chair
caught his eye. Perfect. He picked up the tape and bound the three men securely, wrists and ankles. "Gotta love MacGyver,"
he said.
Richie's sword lay on the floor beside couch. Duncan picked up the weapon,
trying to ignore the implications of the sticky coating of half-dried blood. As he approached the door, the Immortal's resonance
grew stronger. Duncan turned the knob and pushed against the door. An animal stench mixed with basement dampness assaulted
his nostrils. He pulled off his coat, rolled it up and set it in the doorway to keep the door ajar. Duncan flicked the light
switch at the top of the stairs and found Richie cowering in a corner. "It's over, Richie," he whispered. "Let's get you out
of here. Can you walk?"
Richie remained oblivious to Duncan's presence. Duncan hoisted him up over
his shoulder and carried him upstairs. He retrieved his coat and stepped over the still unconscious bodies on the living room
floor. Half walking, half running through the deluge, he covered the distance to the T-bird and lay Richie's now mud-slicked
body down across the back seat. He set his katana and Richie's rapier on the passenger seat, climbed into the driver's seat
and drove off.
Fifteen minutes down the road, the downpour lessened to a misty drizzle.
He pulled the car into a tree-covered traffic turnout. "We're out of there, Richie." He turned around and took a good look
at his passenger. What he saw sickened him.
The smell in the car was definitely coming from Richie. His hair hung in
grimy, matted tendrils, his skin barely visible beneath a coating of slimy filth. He lay curled in the fetal position on the
back seat of the car. Duncan fought back his anger and placed his coat over the motionless boy before continuing.
He reached into the glove compartment for his mobile phone and called Tessa.
"I've got him. He's alive. Not well, but alive."
"Thank God," she said. "What did they do to him? What did you do to them?
What can I do?"
"Slow down, Tess. I don't know what they did to him, but they're tied up
for now. Look, I need to get back on the road. We should be home in an hour. I think a hot bath would be a good idea. Love
you."
Next came a call to Joe. Duncan struggled to keep his anger in check. "I
found him. I stole him out from under them. I left three men tied up at the house. Kathleen got away, but you have her address."
He gave Joe the license plate numbers. "Much as I'd like to get my hands on them, it's probably better if your people check
it out. They're used to discretion."
"We're on it, Mac," said Joe. "And I'm glad you found Richie."
Duncan spoke to Richie all the way home. He hoped the youngster heard him.
At the apartment, he lifted Richie from the back seat. Tessa had the door open.
"Oh my God!" She rushed out to them. "Is he all right?"
"Physically, he'll be fine in a day or so. I'm not sure about his mental
state. I have no idea what they did to him. How about that bath?"
"It's running."
Tessa helped Duncan unwrap Richie from the muddy coat. Duncan lowered Richie
into the warm water, not waiting for the tub to finish filling. Tessa supported him and they soaked and scrubbed the grime
away. It took three changes of bath water, but he finally appeared to be clean. Tessa struggled with the tangled mat of Richie's
hair and poured half a bottle of conditioner onto his head to release the snarls. "Do you think I should just cut it?" she
asked.
"Let's let him decide when he's awake."
Richie accepted their ministrations without any sign of recognition. They
might have been bathing a large rag doll. They wrapped him in one of Duncan's plush robes. He seemed gaunt and emaciated although
he had only been gone a little more than a week. Duncan started to carry him to his bed.
Suddenly Richie struggled from Duncan's arms. "I told you I can walk. You
don't have to kick me." Duncan and Tessa exchanged a startled look. Richie pulled away, took two steps, and then began to
collapse. Duncan rushed to support him, and Tessa followed. The two of them held him up as they walked to his room.
"You're safe, Richie," Tessa murmured. "You're home."
"They can't get you. Joe's going to make sure of that. You're fine," Duncan
said. "You'll get some sleep, and you'll feel much better in the morning."
Tessa had cleaned Richie's room; there were fresh sheets on the bed, and
a pitcher of water and glass on the nightstand. Duncan sat Richie down on the bed. "Try to get some sleep," he said. He patted
Richie's shoulder; the boy gasped and recoiled from his touch.
Richie stared into space with unfocused eyes. He grabbed the comforter from
his bed and dragged it to the corner. He enveloped himself in it, hunched down on the floor and began rocking back and forth.
Tessa moved toward him. "Richie. You're home. You're safe." She crouched
down beside him.
"Go away." Richie pulled the cover over his head.
"Let's leave him alone for a little while. Maybe he'll realize where he is
and talk to us," Duncan said.
They sat on the living room couch, the door to Richie's room open so they
could hear him.
"Oh, Mac. What did they do to him? Why is he pushing us away?"
"I don't know, Tess. I don't know. But he's home now, and we'll take care
of him."
She got up and stood in the doorway of Richie's room. He hadn't moved from
his corner spot. Duncan followed and put his hand on her shoulder. "Do you hear him?" she asked. "He's saying, 'I'll be good.
I'll be good.' What kind of animals would do something to cause this?" Tears streamed down her face.
Duncan tasted the salty moisture on his own face. The strain of the last
days had eased, and with it, the control he'd had over his emotions. He squeezed Tessa to him until she gasped for breath.
"I'm sorry," he said, releasing his hold. "Did I hurt you?"
"No. I know exactly how you feel."
"We should try to sleep. We'll hear him."
"I don't think he should be alone," Tessa said. "I'm going to sleep in here."
She lay down on Richie's bed.
"Move over." Duncan climbed in beside her, drawing her close. Relief allowed
the luxury of sleep, but neither felt rested when they awoke the next morning. Duncan got up and headed for their bedroom.
Tessa sat up and looked at Richie, still huddled in the corner. Her stomach
tightened as she imagined what it must have taken to reduce the cocky young man to this state. After a shower that did nothing
to wash away her feelings of tension, Tessa went into the kitchen and made pancakes. Forcing a cheery smile on her face, she
loaded a tray and brought it back to Richie's room.
"Good morning, Richie," she said. "I brought you some breakfast. How about
you hop into bed, and you can eat?"
Richie blinked and put his hands to his eyes, a look of puzzlement on his
face. He made no move to leave his cocoon.
Tessa exhaled, although she didn't realize she had been holding her breath.
She crossed the room and set the tray down beside Richie. He reached for the pancakes and started stuffing them into his mouth.
"Richie. Slow down. There's plenty. Don't eat so fast or you'll make yourself
sick. And how about using the fork? That way, you can put on some syrup and you won't get all sticky."
Richie stopped and peered at Tessa. "Tess? Is it you? Am I home? Is this
real?"
"Yes, Richie. Duncan found you yesterday. We're so glad you're home."
"Home. Home. I'm home. No. I'm dreaming again. They'll be back for me. They
always come back."
"Richie, nobody's coming back for you. Duncan and Joe took care of them.
They're gone. You're here with us, safe, where you belong." Tessa clasped Richie's sticky hands in hers. "You're home."
"Home," he repeated. He removed his hands from Tessa's grasp and wiped his
mouth. His eyes met hers and he burst into tears. "I tried. I really tried. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
"Shhh, Richie. You have nothing to be sorry about." She moved the tray aside
and rocked Richie, stroking his curls as he wept. "You're home. We're here."
She heard Duncan enter the room, but motioned him back and let Richie cry
himself out. She handed him a tissue.
"I don't know why I cried like that."
"I don't know why you didn't. From what we can tell, you've had a rough time.
Do you want to talk about it?"
Richie's eyes took on a glassy stare. He looked down into his plate. "Nothing
much to talk about. This girl kidnapped me, and then I just waited until someone found me."
Richie methodically finished his pancakes and curled himself back into a
ball. Tessa took the tray back to the kitchen. She found Duncan waiting for her.
"I don't know what to say, Mac. He stuffed the food into his face with his
fingers. He seems willing to take orders. It's like he's fading in and out of reality."
"He needs to talk about it. I know that much."
"I agree. I just don't think we should push too hard yet."
Just then, Richie walked into the kitchen, stark naked. Tessa raised her
eyebrows, then averted her eyes.
"Good morning, Richie," said Duncan, his voice even. "We're glad to have
you back. How about you put some clothes on?"
Richie seemed oblivious to his state of undress. "Clothes. Yes." He turned
and left the room.
"Shell shock. Post Traumatic Stress," said Duncan.
"Do you know how to treat it?"
"Not really. But I do know it will take time and patience."
Richie wandered through the apartment, in and out of the shop, and sat at
his bedroom window. The haunted look in his eyes still remained. Tessa called him to the table for dinner. He came out of
his room, took his customary seat and began wolfing down his meal. After a few bites, he slowed down. Duncan and Tessa attempted
light conversation about the weather, Tessa's current art project, and Richie's recent sales in the shop. He responded to
Tessa, but seemed afraid to meet Duncan's eyes, mumbling his answers to the Scot's questions into his plate. When Richie's
plate was empty, he pushed back from the table and roamed aimlessly around the apartment once again.
"Why don't you come sit by the fire, Richie?" asked Tessa. "Duncan will join
us when he finishes the dishes." She didn't mention that doing the dishes was usually Richie's chore.
Before he sat down, Richie turned on every lamp in the room. He sat down
next to Tessa, his hands in his lap, staring into the fire. Duncan came in a few minutes later. Tessa could see Richie stiffen.
She looked at Duncan. He'd noticed it, too. He moved to the stereo system and started a Mozart CD playing. The bright sounds
of the overture to The Marriage of Figaro filled the room.
"Richie. Do you remember the concert?" Tessa asked. "They played Mozart that
night. Then the three of us went to dinner at Chez Normandie."
"I guess so."
"Do you want to talk?" asked Duncan.
"I don't know."
"Mac, maybe Richie is still tired. Richie, would you like to go to bed?"
"Okay." He remained sitting motionless on the couch.
Tessa took his hand and led him to his room. She went to his dresser and
pulled out his usual sleeping uniform of boxers and a T-shirt and handed it to him. "Here. Put these on and get into bed."
Richie did as he was told. Tessa's heart sank as she watched the shell of
the young man behaving like an automaton. She shut off the light. Richie screamed.
"Oh, Richie. I'm sorry. Here, I've turned the light back on." She went to
the bed, where Richie had hugged his knees to his chest. She ran her fingers up and down his back. "Lie down and get some
sleep."
Richie tucked himself into a tight ball and pulled the covers under his chin.
Tessa stormed out to the living room. "Oooh, just give me one minute with
whoever did this to him. Just one minute-"
"Tess, calm down. Joe's handling them. As much as I'd like to deal with these
... animals, right now getting Richie well is our priority. And I've talked with Sean Burns; he said Richie has to face what
happened. It won't be easy for any of us. But he's young, he's strong and resilient. I'm sure we'll make progress. We can't
undo the damage overnight."
"You're right, but I'm still furious."
Late that night, screams from Richie's room awakened the couple. Duncan threw
back the covers, but Tessa put her hand out to stop him. "Wait. He's more relaxed with me. I think he's still got you mixed
up with the men who hurt him."
Tessa rushed to Richie's room. She held him. "Richie. It's me, Tessa. You're
home. It's a nightmare. Please, tell me about it. Nightmares don't hurt so much when you talk about them." Tessa barely heard
Richie when he began to respond.
"It was dark. Like the closet. I couldn't be good enough, so it was dark
all the time."
"Richie, I'm sure you were good enough. They were just very evil people.
Did they hurt you?"
"Yes," he whispered. "I tried not to cry."
She looked up and saw Duncan standing just outside the doorway, out of Richie's
field of vision. He nodded approvingly.
"We've talked before about crying. It's okay to cry, especially when you're
hurt. How did they hurt you?"
Richie shook his head violently. "They took my sword. Don't tell Mac."
"Richie, no. Mac brought your sword back. It's over there, see?" She pointed
across the room where Richie's rapier lay across the top of his bookshelf. "He cleaned it for you, too."
"Don't tell Mac," Richie repeated over and over. Then, "Can I go to sleep
now?"
"Of course, Richie. Do you want me to stay here for a while?" The grip he
had on her hand tightened. She sat up against the headboard and let Richie lie in her lap as she massaged the taut muscles
in his neck. Soon he was asleep. "Go back to bed," she mouthed to Duncan. "I'll be fine."
The dawn added its brightness to the perpetual light left on in Richie's
room. Tessa extricated herself from under Richie and went to make some coffee. She found Duncan already in the kitchen.
"I looked in on you a little while ago; you were still asleep. How did it
go?" Duncan asked.
"Not good. He woke up three more times."
"You should have called me."
"No. One of us needs to be rested. Besides, I think he's afraid of you."
"Afraid of me? Why?"
"He thinks he's failed you. You showed your trust, and he feels he betrayed
it. You're a father figure to him. He loves you. Remember, he hasn't had a positive father figure before. He equates displeasing
you with being punished or thrown out, like what happened with so many of his foster parents."
"But he knows better. We've had a strong relationship."
"I'm sure deep down he knows that. But right now he's so emotionally messed
up he can't think; all he can do is feel. And it's those old feelings that are all mixed up with his new life."
"Why do you think he's comfortable with you?"
"Probably because I'm more of an older sister to him than a mother figure.
Someone he's willing to confide in. He didn't say much last night. I think he was talking in his sleep, but it sounds like
they did a lot more to him than keep him locked up in a basement.
Tessa stopped talking as Richie walked into the kitchen. This time he was
dressed in faded jeans and a tattered old sweatshirt that had probably once been blue. Tessa never thought she'd be glad to
see it again. She'd tried on more than one occasion to relegate it to her studio rag pile, but it always found its way back
to Richie's room.
"Good morning, Richie," Duncan said. "Can I fix you something for breakfast?"
Richie gave a noncommittal shrug.
"Oatmeal?" Duncan asked.
"Sure."
"Richie, you hate oatmeal," Duncan said. "How about French toast?"
"Okay."
Tessa finished her coffee preparations. "While you two have breakfast, I'm
going to take a shower. I'll see you later." She gave both men a kiss.
In the shower, Tessa adjusted the water as hot as she could stand it, trying
to soothe the knots in her stomach. Her tears mingled with the sharp spray. The water was almost cold before she felt in control.
After her shower, Tessa checked and found Richie was back in his room, staring
out the window. She went out to the living room; Duncan had cleaned up the kitchen. She assumed she would find him in the
shop, preparing for opening. She started to join him when the doorbell rang.
Tessa answered the door to a man about her age, tall and lean, dressed in
jeans and an oversized sweater, a coat slung over his arm. Hazel eyes peered at her over a hawk-like nose.
"Tessa Noel?" he asked.
She noted the British accent that added an air of dignity to his simple question.
"Yes. Is there something I can do for you?"
"I came by to see how Richie is doing. I hope I'm not intruding."
She looked at him warily. "How do you know Richie?"
"I'm sorry. I should have introduced myself. My name is Adam Pierson and-"
"Adam Pierson! Please, come in." She stepped aside and led him into the living
room. "We owe you a debt of gratitude. Thank you so much for your efforts in finding Richie." She motioned him to the couch.
Tessa watched her guest glance around the room. She recognized the look that
had come over his face and turned to see Duncan entering through the studio, katana at his side. Richie appeared around the
corner, his face an impassive mask, but his rapier in hand. Great, she thought. Another Immortal. Until recently, she'd known
only Duncan, and now her living room was a Gathering place.
Adam stood up, palms upturned away from his body in a gesture of peace. "I
didn't come to challenge. I wanted to ask about Richie."
"Duncan, this is Adam Pierson. You remember how he helped us."
Adam bobbed his head. "Thanks for the beer, by the way."
Duncan hesitated for a moment, then nodded. "Let's talk in the shop. Tessa,
you'll excuse us, please. Keep an eye on Richie."
Tessa opened her mouth as if to protest, but forced a polite smile. "Can
I get you anything, Mr. Pierson? Coffee, tea, a beer?"
"As long as you offered, a beer would be fine."
Tessa retrieved a bottle from the refrigerator and handed it to Adam. She
gave Duncan a look that said, "I'll speak with you later," and went to Richie. He sat just inside the doorway of his room,
knees drawn to his chest. His rapier rested on the floor at his side, within reach of his fingertips. Tessa knelt down beside
him, marveling at the strength of his conditioning. Barely able to function, he still reached for his sword at the sense of
another Immortal.
"Hi, Richie. You can relax. Adam Pierson is the man who led Mac to you. He's
talking with Mac now. I think you can put your sword away. Would you like to come sit in the living room?"
He picked up his sword, rose to his feet and sat on the edge of his bed.
He stared at the floor. Tessa reached for the sword, but Richie would not relinquish his grip. She kissed him on the forehead.
"I'll be out in the living room if you want me."
She paced restlessly, wondering what the men were talking about, then flopped
onto the couch with a book, resigning herself to wait until they returned.
***
Duncan led the other Immortal into the shop. Katana still at the ready, he
asked, "What do you want?"
"As I said earlier, I have no desire to challenge you. I'd just like to talk
to Richie."
"Why a Watcher?" Duncan spoke the words he knew Adam must be waiting for.
"What better place to hide? I got tired of the Game and it seemed a good
place to disappear for a while."
"Does Joe know you're one of us?"
"No, and I'd prefer it stay that way."
"Then why reveal yourself to me?"
"I trust you, Duncan MacLeod of the Clan MacLeod. You come from an age where
honor had meaning, and you have lived your entire life that way."
Duncan watched as Adam moved through the shop, stopping to look at some of
his most ancient and valuable pieces. The look in his eyes made Duncan suspect that this man had seem some of them when they
were new. He wondered how old he really was.
"Not bad," Duncan said. "You get to keep tabs on the competition. Who's your
assignment?"
"I'm not a field agent. I'm in research, working on the Methos chronicles."
He bent to examine a display case of silver.
"Methos, as in the legendary 5000-year-old Methos?"
Adam looked up. "The same." He met Duncan's eyes at last.
Duncan saw the bemused expression cross Adam's face, and knew his own visage
had just revealed the understood connection. "You're Methos."
"It does make it easy to keep the dogs at bay, being your own Watcher. And,
as I said before, I trust your sense of honor implicitly. I'd appreciate it if you'd just think of me as Adam Pierson for
now. But I really did come about Richie."
"Why should I let you talk to Richie? What can you do for him? And more importantly,
why would you come out of hiding to help a kid who's still in his Immortal infancy?"
"I just thought I might be able to help." He paused. "Someone helped me once,"
he added quietly. "I know how he feels."
"How?" Duncan asked.
"Bergen-Belsen."
Duncan saw the look of pain and despair flit across Adam's' face as he spoke
those two words, then disappear behind the mask of guarded neutrality once again. He nodded. "All right. But so help me, anything
happens to Richie and your head is mine."
Methos raised his beer bottle in acknowledgment. "I understand."
The two men returned to the apartment. Tessa stood, her displeasure at being
left outside the circle obvious. She gave Adam a brusque nod. Duncan moved to put his arm around her waist; she pulled away
and stared at him. "Please call Richie," Duncan said. "Adam would like to talk to him. It's all right."
Duncan heard Tessa mutter something about brandy and cigars as she went to
Richie's room. The youngster followed her back into the living room, his rapier still at his side.
"Richie," Duncan said. "This is Adam Pierson. He's one of the good guys.
He'd like to talk to you for a while."
Richie stared at Adam with the same haunted look he'd been wearing since
they'd found him.
"It's chilly outside, Richie," the old Immortal said. "Why don't you get
your jacket and we can go out for a walk."
Richie turned without speaking and went back toward his room. Tessa started
to interrupt, but Duncan touched her shoulder. "It's okay, Tess. Let them go."
Richie returned wearing his jacket. His sword was no longer visible, but
Duncan knew it was with him. Adam slipped his coat on, and the young Immortal followed the oldest out the door into the crisp
afternoon. Duncan stared after them as they walked down the street, Richie's shoulders slumped, head bowed. Adam walked alongside,
his hands shoved in his coat pockets. Tessa's voice brought him away from the doorway.
"So, are you going to tell me what this is all about, or should I just go
crochet something?"
"Tessa, calm down. Adam, as you figured out, is an Immortal. And no one else
is to know that, especially Joe."
She nodded. "I can see why it wouldn't be good for Adam if the Watchers knew
he was immortal. But what does any of that have to do with Richie?"
"It doesn't. But Adam is a survivor; he's seen some bad times himself. He
can understand what Richie's going through much better than we can. I think someone helped him out of the darkness once, and
he's returning the favor." Duncan enveloped Tessa in his arms, stroking her hair and inhaling her special scent. "I love you.
I think you'll just have to trust me on this one."
"I love you, too. And I trust you."
"Good. Now let's try to get back to business. I have to open the shop, and
I thought you had a new project you were supposed to be working on."
She half-smiled up at him. "Back to business it is, then."
Duncan left Tessa in her studio and continued into the shop. An elderly couple
wanted to know if the value of some family jewelry would cover a European vacation. He let them down as gently as he could;
they might be able to afford a week in Portugal as long as they flew coach and went in the off season.
Tessa joined him a while later. "I couldn't concentrate on my work. This
just happened." She handed him her sketch pad.
Duncan glanced at the sketches she had been making and recognized Adam Pierson.
He looked at the eyes that stared at him from the page; they were warm and caring.
"You have a knack for getting down to the essence, Tess. I trust him."
"I hope you're right."
The traffic in the shop was slow but steady throughout the morning, providing
a much needed distraction. The shop was empty when Duncan felt the return of Adam and Richie. He turned the sign on the door
to 'Closed.'
"They're back," he said to Tessa. The two of them went back to the apartment.
Duncan waited at the front door.
Adam and Richie came through the door, faces ruddy with the chill, hair windblown.
"I'll see you again, Richie," said Adam as the youth went toward his room.
"Well," Tessa said. "How did it go? How is he? Where did you go? What did
you do?"
"Fine. The same. We walked. I talked," answered Adam. "You don't cure this
in three hours, you know."
"So, what's your prognosis?" Duncan asked.
"You certainly are inquisitive. May I have a beer, please? I've been talking
nonstop for over three hours."
"Mi casa es su casa," Duncan said, nodding toward the kitchen.
Adam returned and lowered his body to the couch, took a sip of beer then
set the bottle on the table. Tessa wordlessly handed him a coaster. "Sorry," he said and slid it under his beer. He stretched
his long legs out in front of him and stared into the fire. "It was a start. If you don't mind, I'll come back tomorrow."
Duncan and Tessa exchanged a look. "Fine," the Scot said.
Adam reached into the pocket of his coat and pulled out a small vial of pills.
"These should help you get some sleep."
"I'm sorry, but I don't think I'm going to take pills given to me by someone
I just met a couple of hours ago," said Tessa.
Adam smiled. "They're not for you, they're for Richie. If he sleeps through
the night, you should, too. Just use them for a night or two; he'll have to confront his memories on his own, but he needs
some uninterrupted sleep first." He handed Tessa the medicine. "Give him two of these at bedtime."
She examined the label. "Excuse me, but how do you just walk in and have
a prescription for sleeping pills for Richie Ryan in your pocket?"
"I was a doctor before I was a Watcher. I figured Richie could use a good
night's sleep. From the looks of things, so could the two of you."
"Thank you," Duncan said. He took the pills from Tessa. "I think you're right."
Adam returned the next day. "Good Morning. I see the pills helped," he said.
"Yes. Thanks," said Duncan.
"Sleep deprivation is a terrible thing. Is Richie ready?"
"I'll get him." He went to Richie's room and found him sitting on his bed,
sword in hand. "It's okay, Richie. It's Adam. He'd like to walk with you again. Get your jacket."
Richie picked up his jacket from the chair and shuffled off to the living
room. The two Immortals replayed the events of the previous morning.
***
Richie struggled against the hands pinning him down. "Please, no. Not again."
"Shh. You're dreaming, Richie. It's okay. Wake up."
Soothing words penetrated his consciousness. He felt Tessa's gentle hands
on his back. "Tess?"
"It's me. You're home in your own bed."
"I'm sorry."
"What for?"
"For waking you. I've been doing that a lot lately, haven't I?"
"Don't worry about it."
"I'm okay now, Tess. You can go back to bed. Really. I'm fine."
Tessa gave him a skeptical look. Richie turned his back to her and closed
his eyes. As soon as he heard her leave, he opened them again. He remembered one of his foster moms had told him that going
to the bathroom helped get rid of bad dreams. That was easier than having to talk about them. He pulled off the covers.
Back in bed, he stared at the ceiling. It bothered him that he was still
leaving the bedside lamp on at night, but no amount of shame could counteract the terror that overcame him when he turned
it off. Duncan and Tessa said they understood, but he still hated showing his weakness. They seemed to accept the fact that
he'd have these uncontrollable crying jags for no apparent reason. He hoped they didn't know that he'd been sick to his stomach
on more than one occasion since he'd come home.
Mac never goes off the deep end, Richie thought. Except for right after Tessa's
shooting, but that was different. Nobody was hurting him; he was just worried. He's always in total control. He'd have escaped
from that basement. And taken out those monsters, too. Richie fell into a troubled sleep.
A rare gleam of bright Seacouver sunlight shone through Richie's window the
next morning. He got up and waited for Adam. They'd only met a few days ago, but Adam seemed to know what to do. He never
asked Richie to talk about anything. He just walked. And talked. And talked. The man never stopped talking; he talked about
history, about women, about music, about some of his challenges. He didn't talk about being locked up in a basement or having
people slice you open and watch you heal. Richie knew Adam was older than Duncan. Probably at least as old as Darius, but
he knew better than to ask.
Two weeks passed. The days merged into one another. Adam came over every
morning and they went walking. They walked in the cold, in the wind, and in the rain. They'd come back and Adam would have
a beer.
Richie worked at getting back into his old routine. He tried to help Duncan
in the shop, but sometimes a customer would come in whose build, or clothes, or demeanor triggered a memory, and he would
have to run from the room. He started avoiding the shop during the day, going in after hours to clean, arrange the stock,
and do paperwork.
A month went by. Adam never missed a walk. Richie enjoyed hearing about the
past. Adam could do what his history teachers had never been able to do-tell him what it was like to be there. Richie began
asking the occasional question. Slowly, the topic of man's inhumanity to man crept into the conversation. Richie asked him
about the Revolutionary War, the Civil War.
"No," said Adam. "I didn't own slaves then. I was a doctor."
"Did you know Mac? What was he doing?"
"I met MacLeod the same time I met you. Why don't you ask him what he did
during the Civil War?"
"Maybe. What about World War II? Where were you then?" Richie saw Adam's
expression go blank. "Hey, I'm sorry. I mean, you don't have to talk about anything if you don't want to."
"No, Richie. I don't mind. But let's sit down." The two found a bench by
a stand of pines. "I was in Germany for a lot of the war. Trying to help. They thought I was a Jew, and sent me to one of
the camps. Bergen-Belsen."
Richie was silent for several moments. "And that's why you're helping me."
He paused again. "It was terrible, wasn't it?"
"Yes, it was."
"How did you get over it?"
"I learned to deal with the images. And someone took me on long walks."
Richie looked at him. "Can you help me? With the images, I mean."
"Of course. You know I'll be back tomorrow."
"Yes. I'll be ready."
Another week passed. Richie started initiating conversations. "What do you
think about opera?"
"I don't much care for it. I prefer more contemporary music. Why?"
"Just wondering if it was an Immortal thing, or something special with Mac.
Except for stuff like Mozart, just about all that used to allow on his big stereo system was opera."
"Why the past tense?" Adam asked.
"Well, now, if I put Nine Inch Nails or Smashing Pumpkins
on in the living room, he just looks at Tessa, but never says anything."
"And does that bother you?"
"I think they're afraid to upset me. But sometimes I wish they'd treat me
the way they used to. You know, get mad when I screw up. I know I must be driving them nuts. Heck, I'm driving me nuts."
Adam smiled. "You're doing fine."
***
A few days later, Tessa was in the kitchen making fruit salad when Richie
and Adam came back from their walk. They joined her in the kitchen, Adam helping himself to a beer, and Richie sitting at
the table. "Did you have a nice walk, Richie?" asked Tessa.
Richie looked at Adam before answering. "Okay, I guess. It's windy."
Tessa smiled. "Would you like to help cut up some fruit?"
Richie went to her side and cut an orange in half.
"That's good, but you have to peel oranges before they can go in the salad.
Why don't you work on the apples," she said and handed him one.
Richie took the apple in his hand. He rotated it in his palms. He dropped
it as if it were on fire and raced out of the room.
Sitting on the edge of his bed, Richie waited for his heart to stop pounding.
Freaked by an apple. Well, at least he didn't cry or puke this time.
He took a deep breath, stood up, held his head high, and walked back into
the kitchen. Adam was still drinking his beer. Richie picked up the knife and began cutting up apples for the salad as if
nothing had happened. "I kind of ate too many apples once," he offered as way of explanation.
***
Richie tried to fight off his attackers, but he couldn't move. His arms were
pinned. He struggled in vain. "Just tell me what you want. I'll do it, just tell me what you want," Richie whimpered.
A man's voice called softly. "Richie. It's Duncan. Mac. You're safe. You're
home. It's all right. Wake up; it's just a bad dream."
Richie opened his eyes. His fear must have been obvious. Mac sat on the edge
of Richie's bed and took his hand. He spoke in soothing tones. "I'm not going to hurt you. You can stay right here, in your
bed, in the light. You haven't done anything wrong. I want you to relax, Richie. Just lie back. I'll be here. You don't have
to do anything."
"It's okay, Mac. I'm awake now." He wished Duncan would go away.
"You know I'm very proud of you. You did your job. You stayed alive until
I found you."
"Only because they didn't take my head. I didn't do anything."
"You stayed alive. That's all that matters. Whatever you did, that was the
right thing."
"If you say so."
"Richie, can you tell me anything about what they did to you?"
"It hurts too much. I'm okay; you can go back to bed."
Duncan made no move to leave. "Can you try just a little? Just squeeze my
hand if it hurts. I'll share the pain with you."
Richie pulled himself to a sitting position. Adam had told him he'd be able
to talk about what happened eventually. Maybe he really could do it. "Adam said it's easier if you move the pictures in your
head far away, and make them not so real - you know, black and white instead of color, cartoon drawings instead of photographs."
"And is Adam right?"
"Pretty much. The images still come, but they don't seem as scary."
"Good. Then why don't you keep on doing that and see if you can talk about
what happened."
Richie took a shaky breath and stared at a point high on the distant wall.
"They kept me in the basement in the dark. They gave me apples, cheese and water. Itchy blankets. And a bucket."
Duncan squeezed Richie's hand. "That's a good start. Can you remember anything
else?"
"There were different men, but Cowboy was always there. He was the leader.
I think he charged the other guys big bucks to come play. They'd bring me up from the basement. They taped me in a scratchy
chair while they had their fun." He fought back the images of the blood, the pain. "Then they'd kill me. With my sword. When
I came back, they'd kick me downstairs until the next time."
Richie hesitated a moment. He could do this. Pretend it's someone else. It's
just a cartoon show. He dug his hands into Duncan's palm and took another cleansing breath.
"The burning was the worst." He spoke in a dull monotone, eyes glued to his
focal point. "Matches, candles, sometimes hot pokers. It hurt so much, and the smell made me sick. Drowning was the easiest.
And at least I'd be semi-clean for a day." He paused when a flicker of motion crossed his peripheral vision. Tessa was in
the doorway.
"It's okay, Tessa. If I'm going to get through this, it'll be easier just
to do it once."
Tessa came in and sat on the other side of Richie's bed. Her eyes glistened
with tears.
"I had to figure out what they wanted so they'd stop cutting me, or shooting
me, or hitting me, or whatever ... how could they enjoy that? They made up rules, different ones each time. Sometimes if I
made any sounds they'd hurt me worse; sometimes they would give me a break if I made a lot of noise or tried to get away.
They'd bet on how long before I'd beg them to stop. I tried not to... not give them the satisfaction ... but ... I begged.
I cried." Richie's voice cracked, and he wept, his head buried in Duncan's chest. He felt the soft touch of Tessa's hands
on his back. He pulled back and touched Duncan's wet face. He saw only compassion in the Scot's brown eyes.
Duncan held him for several minutes before speaking again. "You're doing
fine Richie. We'll get through this together. Can you go on?"
Richie drew strength from Duncan's embracing arms. "A couple of the guys
would, you know ... well, they'd have their hands in their pants...even Kathleen watched sometimes, and she'd get this look..."
"They're sick, Richie. Evil and sick," Duncan said.
"I know, but it still hurt just as much. And sometimes they'd ... they'd
... "
"It's okay, Richie. Go on," Duncan said, gently stroking Richie's back. "None
of this was your fault."
"I can't. I just can't."
"You can, Richie. Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and just say it,"
Tessa said softly.
Richie paused. "They raped me," he whispered. He felt his face burning with
shame. "One ... put my ... you know ... in his mouth, and later his ... up my ... I couldn't stop it. I hated it, but I still
... still ... ."
Everything he had ever tried to keep inside seemed to come flooding out in
gut wrenching sobs. Memories of his foster parents entwined with those of his tormentors. He cried tears of anger, of fear,
of shame, of relief. He sobbed until he had nothing left.
Richie felt Duncan's arm around his shoulders. "Listen to me," he heard the
Scot say. "You have nothing to be ashamed of. It was pure violence."
Totally drained, Richie sniffed and collapsed into the protective custody
of Duncan's broad torso. He was home.
The three sat together in silence for several minutes. Tessa's quiet voice
broke the stillness. "Richie, I know Duncan would want a drink right about now.< How about you? Scotch? Brandy? Or maybe
hot chocolate?"
Richie peeked up at Tessa. "Do we have any ice cream? All of a sudden, I'm
hungry."
"You've got it. Mac?"
"You two can split the ice cream. I'll stick with brandy."
Tessa smiled and left the room to fetch their treats.
Richie woke up first the next morning. He felt his face flush when Duncan
and Tessa came into the kitchen, but he forced himself to meet their eyes. "Would you like some breakfast?" he asked. "I was
going to scramble some eggs."
"We'd love some," Duncan said. "How about I make the coffee, and Tessa can
make the toast."
The threesome sat around the breakfast table, enjoying a meal for the first
time in a long while. "Think you can help me in the shop for a while today, Richie?" asked Duncan. "I've got some crates that
need to be unpacked."
"Sure. Glad to help." Richie smiled. "At least until Adam gets here."
Duncan flashed a smile back. "After breakfast, then."
Life slowly approached its normal proportions. Richie did chores in the shop
during business hours although he refused to wait on customers. He still couldn't trust his emotions. Although the fits of
anger and the crying spells had lessened, they crept up almost without warning. He started going back to Charlie's dojo to
train, and ran with Duncan most mornings. Richie and Adam continued their daily walks. The nightmares diminished in frequency,
and he began turning off the lamp when he went to bed.
After dinner one night, Richie got up from the table and put a CD into the
player. Duncan and Tessa exchanged one of their disagreement looks. Duncan shook his head. Richie turned up the volume. Tessa
glared at Duncan, marched over to the stereo and turned it off.
"Richie, that's enough. You have a perfectly good system in your room; if
you want to listen to these Mashed Squash -"
"Smashing Pumpkins."
"Fine, Smashing Pumpkins, then. If you want to listen to the noise
you call music, you do it in your room with the door closed or the headphones on. And another thing. You're supposed to be
doing the dishes. You can start tonight." She stood there, hands on her hips and stared at him.
Richie grinned as though his face would break, then embraced Tessa in a bear
hug. "I love you, Tess." He went to the kitchen where Duncan was standing with a bewildered expression on his face. "You,
too, Mac."
The Scot stood still for a moment, then wrapped his arm around Richie's neck
and rubbed his knuckles through Richie's hair. "Well," he said. "Get going. There's a counter full of dishes waiting to be
washed."
***
Epilogue:
The seasons passed. Richie had his good days and his bad days. He worked
off his anger at the dojo or sparring with Duncan. He could face customers in the shop. Adam came by every now and then, and
he and Richie would disappear for hours, sharing beers and quiet conversation when they returned. Adam joined them for Christmas
dinner. Soon the second anniversary of the shooting approached. Tessa opened the mail and found three concert tickets.
"Mac, do you know who might have sent these?" She handed him the envelope.
He looked at the tickets. "Not a clue. Richie? Did you order concert tickets
for us?"
"No. Let me see." He took the pieces of pasteboard from Duncan and laughed
out loud. "They've got to be from Adam." He looked at Tessa. "Guess you get to pick the restaurant this time. We're going
to a Queen concert."
The End